Fasting

What's the point of me fasting? Am I fasting for the sake of showing others that I am following the 40 days fast and prayer? Or am I fasting because I really, really wanna see revival coming to Malaysia and sweep us all off our feet? Today, as I was just praying on the prayer items that is in the 40 days fast and prayer booklet, I asked myself this question. What is the point of me fasting? And once again I'm reminded that I fast and pray because I really believe that through prayer, God will move. God can change this nation. And anyway, true fasting is not about an outwardly appearance, it is about consecrating yourself to God. Am I doing that? Are you?

Believe

I say on Sunday how much I want revival

But then my Monday, I can't even find my Bible

Where's the power

The power of the cross in my life

I'm sick of playing the game of religion

I'm tired of losing my reason for living

Where's the power

The power of the cross in my life

I'm not content just to walk through my life

Giving into the lies

Walking in compromises now

We cry out as a generation that was lost

But now is found in the power of the cross

We believe in You

We believe in the power of Your Word and its truth

We believe in You

So we lay down our cause

That our cross might be found in You

I'm not satisfied doing it my own way

I'm not satisfied to do church and walk away

I'm not satisfied, there's no love in my life but You

I'm not satisfied living in yesterday's hour

I'm not satisfied to have the form, but not the power

I'm not satisfied, Oh Lord I am crucified in You

Do we want to be Christians like this? Someone who wants revival on Sunday but forgets where he/she puts his Bible on Monday? Let's not play this game of religion anymore. Let's not walk in compromise anymore. Let's lay down our cause for God. Let's not only desire revival but make it happen.

It Isn't Gonna Be Easy

When I was just waiting upon God the other day, He told me that doing my Masters degree is not going to be easy. But He will be there with me, to give me strength and the courage to go on. Yesterday what He said became all the more real when I went into my Research Methodology class. The lecturer was telling us that doing postgraduate studies, it is common that we get stuck while doing our researchs. He said that it is a test of your strength and character. I fully agree with him. But while he says that pushing us to the edge will make us depend on ourselves more and make us perform better, I beg to differ. Why, you ask? Because I have Christ Jesus. While others might struggle alone and learn how to depend on themselves more, I have God to depend on.

In times like those, I have full confidence that I can turn to Jesus and He'll be there for me. When the lecturer was describing what the process of doing Masters like, he said that it is the journey that is truly what you're after, it's the experience of doing the research that is the Masters, not some thesis at the end. You may write a really good thesis but you might not get anything out of the journey. I just felt like God was telling me He is going to break me and mold me again. Through this journey, He is going to build my character. And yes God, I trust that You will take me through it.